Numb

You ever feel like nothing you do, or have ever done, or ever will do, will be good enough? What is your body's reaction?

I shut down. Any and all motivation I may have had disappears. Real smiles become fake. Real laughter feels forced. Thoughts turn to failure and all I want to do is lose myself in the wilderness so that I can't hurt anyone. But since the motivation is gone, I end up not doing anything.

I feel numb.