When you get into a relationship, the goal is happiness for both parties, right? So what happens when nobody is happy?

I'm tired of everything I do being questioned. I'm tired of second-guessing everything. I'm tired of not being able to make a single decision on my own because I'm afraid of hurting someone who is convinced that they deserve to be hurt. Everything is crumbling.

Everything. I feel the numbness welling up inside. And once everything is numb, I can never go home again.

There's this emotion called love that I'm supposedly comfortable with. I'm not...

I am going to give the rest of this relationship my all, even if I know I'm not going to be happy in the end. If I can keep even one person happy, maybe I won't be such a failure.

Love

 1 Corinthians 13:4-13 reads thusly:

"⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹ For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰ but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. ¹¹ When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. ¹² For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

¹³ And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."