I am seriously considering never telling my mother another damn truth ever again. She's lucky I told her the truth this time, and she thinks she knows what my "heart and conscience" think is right and/or wrong?
I am friends with a married couple, who's marriage and relationship is relatively open. There are a lot of specifics and all that (which I won't get in to because I don't know them all), but the gist of it is that as long as he says it's okay, then during alcoholic parties and such her sleeping with friends is fine. My introduction into this type of relationship was rather forward and sudden, and it took me a while to come to grips with it, but in the end I've decided that if they're okay with it, then I am too.
Because, you know... at least BOTH PARTIES know about it.
My mother's current boyfriend/not boyfriend/roommate/general origin of annoyance used to be married. And he was fucking my mother while he was still married. Not only this, but my mother KNEW he was married and fucking around. It didn't matter since "they're getting a divorce at some point anyway," so it was alright for her to do that.
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
FUCK YOU. YOU CANNOT SIT BACK AND TELL ME THAT WHAT I'M DOING IS WRONG WHEN YOU DID THE SAME DAMN THING YOURSELF. NOT ONLY THIS, BUT YOU'RE ENCOURAGING THE BASTARD TO DO THE SAME DAMN SHIT TO YOU. AT THE VERY LEAST I FUCKING ASKED BOTH PARTIES BEFORE ANY FUCKING THING HAPPENED, UNDERSTAND?!
How is she encouraging him to cheat on her? How about, she's basically caught him before, and flat out told him it's okay, just don't do it again. She's continually complaining about how she doesn't want to live with him anymore, but what is she doing about it? Nothing. She has no job, and she makes no effort to get one. I at least make a fucking effort. She's trying to rely on winning the lottery. She has an opportunity to move to the projects to get away from him. Her excuse? "I don't want to go to the projects."
BITCH, EVEN YOU'VE SAID THE PROJECTS ARE 1000x BETTER THAN LIVING WITH DAVID.
Dammit, I'd go to the projects if I could afford it. I might even do that anyway once I snag a job. If it gets me out from underneath your hypocritical roof, I'll do it.
I think the reason why she doesn't want to go to the projects is not because of her own wanting or not wanting to. In fact, I think it's because when she first brought it up, I said that I didn't want to. But now that I continue to think about it, I'm fine with going. Her? She can't make up her fucking mind about ANYTHING anymore.
I am so TIRED of this shit. Not having a job, not having a working car, not being on my own, and every day getting bitched at for not having a job by a stupid bitch who doesn't have a job herself. She claims she has a job watching her grandkids, but that's not a job. At $3 an hour at most, that's a fucking FAVOR. She sits back and watches them suffer, and comes home and complains about it, saying she wants to do this or that, then goes back and does NOTHING. Quit fucking bitching about it and do something, or shut the fuck up.
So much I wish I could say to her out loud, but I can't because I still fucking live here and have nowhere else to go.
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