03 October 2012

The Best Intentions

You say you heard every word, but I watched you turn away
Your eyes grew colder than winter
"Love is so intrusive," I thought I heard you say
And laugh so unconvincingly

Famous last words, "I'm not ready yet"
"I won't be gone a minute"

Narrow is the road and too high a price to pay
When loneliness is such a sanctuary
Empty are the musings and wasted are the days
When you say you were only waiting

And famous last words, "I'm not ready yet"
"I won't be gone a minute" and I won't forget
Famous last words
If tomorrow never comes, will I ever know that I was in love?

I was in love
In love

You say you heard every word, I watched you turn away
You were only waiting...

I don't know if I'm making the right decision. I love this girl like I've only ever loved one other person, and in the end, me and that girl failed. Like everything else I've ever tried to do, tried to be, tried to love... I failed. She keeps blaming herself, but I know the real culprit... it's me.

Is she right? Is leaving the best thing for me to do? We'll both be heartbroken, but she'll forget about me in a few months, and it'll be like I never even existed. Maybe that's better for her. She doesn't need someone like me mucking about in her (to her) stable life. I have the best intentions... but then, even the Reapers are acting on the best intentions...

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